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Returning to self-understanding of psychosis delusions reality vs falsehoods, what paranoia is and determining what delusions really cannot be explained in a definition or expressed through an encyclopedia or medical library. A delusion is often perceived as a falsehood, not reality, that other people do not perceive. My delusions are part of psychosis. Going off medication then drifting away into a manic depression episode. Who's to say delusions and psychosis are not just part of detoxing from medication and coming down to earth? Once the psychosis and delusions have run their course after an experience of low medication and psychosis, I found myself grounded, seeing clearly. My delusions were reality, not fictional, not false; however, they were something not to be spoken of, not to be addressed to others during psychosis. I needed to demonstrate self-control because my delusional state was false causes and hurtful to be addressed to people, unlike myself, which I find unlikely, a person yet people.
My psychosis experiences have led me into sticky situations: missing appointments and medication, paranoia, thinking others are out to get well off me. I felt people suppressing me so they could work and perform on a higher level in financial, work, social, and school for themselves. If this is true, suppressing me means they are dependent on me. They are concerned I am not taking care of myself, my inner self, the dependency and resiliency that others lean on for their wellness after life. To ensure I am not self-centered and only thinking of myself, they project themselves as messengers relaying messages so that I grasp my position in life. I then become concerned about people questioning my independence and implying I'm isolating, not calling anyone, not talking to anyone, and distancing myself from connecting to others, even people I would normally communicate with regularly. This form of delusion is practical; however, in a state of paranoia and psychosis, it can seem very psychotic, resulting in distorted thoughts that are expressed very rambunctiously in a state of psychosis may not be false but is no time to present what I am feeling to be expressed in a state of psychosis. I truly understand others' perspective that it will only become a delusion and false reality seen as paranoid schizophrenic behavior.
Furthermore, in lieu of, I then become concerned about people questioning my independence and implying I'm isolating, not calling anyone, not talking to anyone, and distancing myself from connecting to others, even people I would normally communicate with regularly. I then ask myself why somebody would be so concerned, stressing I'm isolating. When I isolate, something seems to be happening surrounding me and transitioning people. These people seem to look like they're becoming ill, very sick-looking, and the world becomes psychotic, but I appear to be purifying my body. However, I see others with large breakouts on their faces, and their movements become intrusive, grabbing and trying to touch me, total strangers speaking indirect commentaries in public places. I had to ask myself a question: what is this all about? It has never been explained before. But it's only perceived as me being psychotic, delusional, and paranoid in a state of manic depression. After many experiences of psychosis, I have reconsidered why I am taking medication. I have changed my perception of mental health, my position in this world, and how reliant others are on me taking medication and me taking care of myself. I see medication as a form of creating equivalency so that the world around me moves parallel and does not move against me as the walking dead if they are mortal beings seen as carnal sinners, opposite of my standing in the world.
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My MIND is BLOWN!! This is an amazingly unique and artistic perspective of what psychosis is to the person experiencing, living, it. Not to mention, there are so many versions of an experience and I thought that was pointed out beautifully in this post. Every angle or facet of a psychotic episode is covered here by the author: self, strangers, friends and family, and even rough aquaintences. All of these people are experiencing psychosis through a lens of their own. It is one person’s mind connecting the dots differently than would anyone else, and that process brings together others in a mutual understanding that this is not a “normal” situation and calls for some solution. Understandably, the episode brings …